Queen Elsa may be able to wear a dress and prance around in the snow–but I for one, cannot. In fact, I actually hate the winter. Where I live, it snows for days on end. And bitter temperatures actually make your face hurt. (If you’re not a cartoon.)
In the last few weeks, I’ve started to feel crazy. Like, I need to get out of my house crazy. I need to go somewhere. I need to feel the sun on my skin, and warm wind blow through my hair. I need an adventure, I need something to look forward to. But when I look at the calendar…January, February, and March look about as exciting as an empty parking lot. There’s just not much going on. (And let’s just face it, the holidays in February and March are like the “B-movie” version of holidays. I mean, green beer, chocolate hearts, Groundhog Day? …Tell me if someone with cabin fever didn’t come up with this stuff?)
Sometimes it’s hard not to feel like I’m just sort of waiting for these next few months to be over.
I think a lot of people feel this way. Because “Seasonal Affective Disorder” is real. And those serotonin levels and depression are real. But there’s something else that’s real.
Your spirit.
As human beings made in the image of God, we have been given a spirit part of us. And you won’t see much about this on WebMD. But open the Scriptures, and it’s real. And we were made to fellowship with God. And we were made to experience excitement, and mystery, and desire in His presence.
So instead of just “cabin fever” and “chemical imbalances”–could it also be that our spirit is groaning for intimacy with God? And that the Spirit of God is also calling out wildly to us?
If you have been feeling restless, and bored, and longing for something more—be encouraged! The Spirit is drawing you. He longs to woo you this winter. To draw you out of yourself and into Him, to explore His depths.
Pretty much everyone loves the song “Oceans” by Hillsong. (If you want to listen, click here.) But why do you think this song is loved by so many different people, of so many different denominations, and levels of spiritual maturity? I think it is because this song is wooing to that spirit part of us. The part of us that was made to commune and fellowship with God. We all have it. We all have a spirit–and we all want the Spirit of God to call us out. And the good news is: He is.
He does.
“You call me out upon the waters, the great unknown, where feet may fail.”
God woos in the winter. If we’re quiet enough, to hear Him.
If you are restless, or bored, or depressed–it may be that you are actually hungering and thirsting for God.
And no one can satisfy, or soothe, or thrill like Him. Perhaps our “restlessness” is the prelude to the greatest awakening we’ve yet to experience. For as St. Augustine wrote, “You have made us for Yourself, and our hearts are restless, until we find rest in You.”
Let Him woo you this winter. And He will call your spirit to life. Because that’s what He does. He makes dead things come alive. He makes smoldering wicks burst into flame. And makes stagnant pools flow again.
For as David said, “You make known to me the paths of life, in Your presence there is fullness of joy, at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.” Psalm 16:11
This is how you stay alive in the dead of winter. You stay in the presence of God. And enjoy Him.
Who knows? You may even want to run outside without your coat on. And spin around singing.
Oh my goodness…you literally just spoke right to me! I was thinking about “restlessness” earlier today…and about how I really long for purpose most when I am still. Thank you so much for sharing!!! Blessings on you.
I’m glad you can relate to this “restless” feeling. It truly is something that can either drive us crazy—or drive us to God. I hope I am driven to God! Because I know that’s the only place I will be satisfied and made alive. May He break forth into your winter this year like never before!
Blessings:)
Thank you! Your posts always bless me so much. This resonates with me SO much! I have felt very restless, kind of depressed, searching for meaning in my daily life raising children and keeping a home. It is comforting to know I am not the only one feeling this way. Lord, draw us closer to You and help us to find rest in Your arms.
Michelle,
Sorry it’s taken me this long to get back to you. But I want you to know how much I appreciate your comment! And I’m glad to know someone else “feels this.” Even though I wrote this post almost 2 weeks ago…I am still struggling with these feelings! Just last night I told my husband “I just need to go crazy sometimes.” I am with you girl–searching for that meaning, and purpose in daily life while keeping a home and small kids–I don’t know, it can just be overwhelming sometimes. And then..social media doesn’t always help! When I see all the accomplishments of other people, with gorgeous photos to boot..I’m left wondering–what am I doing?? But the Lord is gracious to bring me back and remind me: I’m not satisfied by what I accomplish. I’m satisfied in what He has accomplished for me. That’s where my joy truly flows! May God keep directing your heart all day long today! (And may you even want to run around in the snow singing wildly…or not;)
Blessings:)
Oh, how do you always make me smile so, yet think at the same time? Kansas winters are often bitter, too, when they can make up their mind to be here! But the winters of my life? Oh, how much more bitter, unbearable, and deadly they’d have been without the Father’s warmth. The call to spin around singing has brought me through many a harsh, wintry time.:) That phrase actually reminds me of something I wrote awhile back, if you don’t mind. https://mrsmariposa2014.wordpress.com/2014/12/15/shake-a-tailfeather-for-jesus/
Thank you for sharing! I love how you said, how unbearable and harsh winter is without the Father’s love. May we feel His warmth in our spirits today. Since He is the only one who can really make us alive! 🙂