I still remember the breathtaking view as we mounted the summit of the Continental Divide in Colorado. I had never seen real mountains before. (Just the kind we have in the East.) And my husband wanted to show me real mountains. I still remember, how massive they were, or how small I was in comparison. My head spun with the vertigo.
When my daughter Selah was just 2-years-old, I realized she didn’t know what a mountain was. Not a clue, actually. So, trying to be educational mommy, I googled some mountains and sat her up on my lap, “See these, these are mountains,” I told her. We looked at as many high-resolution photos online as we could. And I whispered, “Someday honey, I’ll show you real mountains.”
Later that week, as we drove to the grocery story, Selah began shouting from the backseat, “Look Mommy! Mountains! Mountains!”
“Where??” I asked, looking around.
She pointed stiffly out her window, “Right there, Mom!! Mountains!”
Then I saw what she was seeing…
It was a gravel yard.
Assorted types of gravel sat in big heaping piles, 20 or 30 feet off the ground.
“Mountains!” she shouted, raging with excitement.
I could not help but laugh.
“Oh honey,” I said. “Those aren’t mountains.”
“They just kind of look like mountains.”
I couldn’t help but think as I passed them on the way home, how they really did look like mountains.
To her.
Because she was so small, they looked big.
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How many times in my life have I seen the mountains in front of me and been overcome with fear? Drained of courage–to face them. To cross them.
Sometimes the mountains just seem so big. So terrifying. And so solid.
But what if, when I am seeing mountains—God is seeing little piles of gravel?
What if He’s whispering, “Oh honey, that’s not a mountain.”
“Not for Me.”
What are the mountains that you face today?
Often the mountains (for me) are health-related. Is that lump cancerous? Does my blood count point to something life threatening?
Is the baby’s sonogram normal? What if he has a disease?
And we wait holding our breath for test results to come back.
Maybe you are waiting to hear about the diagnosis of someone you love.
Or maybe you are facing a mountain because of an illness or injury they are going through right now.
Our mountains can be financial.
Or relational. Maybe you just don’t know if your marriage, or your own flaws, or spouses flaws can ever change–or if God can redeem your brokenness into something beautiful again.
Mountains. Sometimes everywhere we look, we feel we are surrounded by mountains.
And the mountains we face seem big.
Solid.
And unmovable.
But what if, just what if…that mountain that you face is not a mountain at all?
What if, it’s just a heap of gravel?
Because to God, that’s what it is.
Maybe, it looks like a mountain from where you are standing.
Maybe it looks impossible to face.
Impossible to cross.
But it’s not impossible for God–nothing is impossible for God. God is ABLE.
I love this story in Mark 9 where a father comes to Jesus and is distressed over his sick son–who has a demon, and convulses, and is harmed because of it.
This son has had this problem since he was a “small boy” the story says.
And it’s still happening as he’s getting older. He’s not “out-growing” it. He’s still convulsing, foaming at the mouth, and rigid. I can’t imagine how heart-wrenching it would be as a parent to watch your own son or daughter go through this. And not be able to do anything to help.
When this desperate father meets Jesus, he is already defeated. He already feels like this “mountain” will never go away. After all, he already went to Jesus’ disciples and they could not drive the demon out.
And when Jesus sees this, he says, “You unbelieving generation,” Jesus replied, “how long shall I stay with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring the boy to me.” (Mark 9:19)
The boy’s father says to Jesus, “But if you can do anything, take pity on us and help us.”
“‘If you can’?” said Jesus. “Everything is possible for one who believes.” (Mark 9:22-23)
Some versions say, “If you are able?” Some have exclamation points, “If you can!”
Do you hear the shock in Jesus’ voice here??
If I “can”?!
If I am “able”?!
The poor boys father, probably with tears in his eyes, exclaims, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!” (9:24)
And He does. Jesus drives out the demon, and restores the boy.
I love this story–because it’s so honest. On both sides.
The despair and agony of the father that his son cannot be healed.
And the unfiltered shock of Jesus, at their unbelief. As if He is saying, “Have you no clue Who I AM?”
But then, this loving exchange–where the father cries out, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!”
And the way Jesus just crushes the mountain in front of them. So they can walk through it, like a pile of rubble.
Sometimes as we tremble, terrified of the mountains, we forget:
God is the maker of the mountains.
And He can form them.
And He can crush them.
Like gravel.
(“‘If I can’?” replied Jesus.”)
He is not like us.
We are small. And afraid.
But He. He is big. And strong.
And mighty.
He can do things no one else can do.
He can heal things no one else can heal.
He can change things no one else can change.
If you are trembling, and afraid, like I so often am, I want you to listen to what God says about Himself,
“Is My hand shortened at all that it cannot redeem?
Or have I no power to deliver?” Isaiah 50:2
Oh dear one, have you forgotten who God is?
Have you forgotten what God can do?
What are the mountains that you face?
I don’t doubt they look and feel impossible.
And maybe they are. For you.
But they are not for God.
His word says what is impossible with men, is possible with God.
Because all things are possible with God.
Even that mountain you face today.
Sometimes we see mountains, and God sees little mounds of gravel.
“Oh honey, those aren’t mountains.”
“Not for Me.”
For Him it is a small thing. It is easy.
And I pray He demolishes those things you called “mountains” and shows us they were just piles of gravel.
Not because they weren’t difficult, or hard, or scary. But because He is so much bigger than those things that terrify us. So much stronger. And He is more solid than they are.
And maybe He’s asking today,
“Do you see Me as bigger than the mountains you face? Or smaller?”
“Do you see Me bigger than your fears? Or smaller?”
The answer to this question, defines the size of your mountains.
The answer to this question, either makes them appear like Everest, or like a gravel pile.
He is God. Hope in Him today.
The God who says, “‘If I can?'”
And, “Everything is possible for one who believes.”
And we cry with tears, and trembling, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!”
May He turn our mountains to rubble, and victoriously walk us through them. Because He is God. And He is able. And what is impossible for men, is possible with God. Who says…
“Is My hand shortened at all that it cannot redeem?
Or have I no power to deliver?” Isaiah 50:2
Such powerful truth and encouragement! Thank you SO much for this post!
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