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# Barren to Beautiful

Finding the beauty of God through the barren soul

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- [How To Be Watered in the Wilderness of Infertility](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2020/01/28/how-to-be-watered-in-the-wilderness-of-infertility/) - When you are trying to conceive (TTC) and unable to get pregnant, it can make you weary. Trying to conceive, month after month, is exhausting, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. When we were trying to conceive, my emotions were all over the place. Sometimes, I was full of faith and hope. And sometimes, I felt bitter and numb inside, forcing my feelings down and not daring to hope--because it was too painful to hope. But Christ met me in that wilderness place.
- [Get My FREE Infertility Devotional: Watered in the Wilderness](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2020/01/13/infertility-devotional-in-the-wilderness/) - What if infertility affects more than your body? What if it also affects your...soul? While I was trying to conceive (TTC) I had more than a barren womb, I had a barren soul. Deep inside of me, there was an unfilled longing and ache. At the time, I didn't have a language for what was
- [An Invitation to Enjoy Summer (Without Social Media!)](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2023/05/26/an-invitation-to-enjoy-summer-without-social-media/) - Yes. You can do it! The past few summers I've taken a deliberate BREAK from Facebook and social media. Was it weird? At first, yes. You can read about how I realized I had a scrolling-addiction, and when that little blue app was gone, I turned to Amazon. There, I found myself, somehow scrolling random
- [His Ways Are Not Like Ours: (And This is Good)](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2019/01/30/his-ways-are-not-like-ours-and-this-is-good/) - My hands tremble as I write these words. Because I don't know what it will mean in my life. I tremble at the thought of grief--where I never expected it. But also I tremble at the thought of joy. Where I never expected it. Because, His ways are not like ours. I read it in
- [Pregnant at 43: Jen's Secondary Infertility Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2022/11/30/pregnant-at-43-jens-secondary-infertility-testimony/) - Today, I want to share with you the testimony of Jennifer from our Barren to Beautiful Community Facebook Group. Jen had reached out to me sharing this beautiful and surprising story of God's kindness and mercy after 7 years of secondary infertility. With her permission, I wanted to share with you the "hope" that her
- [To the one who's not ready for a season change](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2022/09/19/to-the-one-whos-not-ready-for-a-season-change/) - The trees are just starting to blush. The forever green leaves of summer have been kissed with just a touch of warmth, like a beautiful woman just beginning to age. When she laughs, the very corners of her eyes wrinkle, or twinkle, depending how you look at her. The trees are like this now. A
- [Searching for Spring: Real Hope for Cold-Climate Dwellers](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2022/04/27/searching-for-spring-hope-cold-climate/) - I don't think feeling desperate for spring is wrong. Actually, I think it's a foretaste of what we long for in heaven. I think that the longing from everything being cold, and dead, and buried underground in the dirt, to getting warm, and soft, and pushing up out of the dirt like the first daffodils is something wired deeply into our souls. I think God gives us a longing for spring. In this physical world that God did make, I think that seeing and touching and smelling new life speaks to some deeper part of our hearts that longs for this to happen in our souls and in our bodies in heaven.
- [Why Your Soul Needs Tending in Winter](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2022/01/26/why-your-soul-needs-tending-in-winter/) - January, February, and March feel like the awkward puberty months of the year. I just don't know what to do with myself. And sometimes, especially after the holidays, I struggle emotionally and spiritually. I don’t know that I have actual “seasonal depression,” but there’s just something about this time of year that tends to make
- [An Open Letter To Those Who Lost Someone to COVID](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2021/11/21/an-open-letter-to-those-who-lost-someone-to-covid/) - "Why did he have to die, Mom?" my 8-year-old daughter Selah asked me, her green eyes full of tears. "I don't know," I whisper. And I hug her. I hold her and think about Harold, my father-in-law we lost unexpectedly last year. As I hold her, I look up and see the giant life-sized picture she drew of him taped to her wall, and the banner that says, "Grandpa" hanging above her window, and the tears roll down my cheeks and into her blonde hair. I don't know how to explain to her why her vibrant, funny, joyful Grandpa died.
- [5 Things I Learned From A Summer Off Social Media](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2021/09/28/5-things-i-learned-from-a-summer-off-social-media/) - Many nights, I would go to bed by the electric glow of my screen, keeping me from rest. And even when I shut off my screen, I couldn't shut off my mind; I would lay in bed and all the news and opinions would rattle around in my soul. Sometimes, it made my heart feel anxious, like a tight a fist. Other times I felt a sense of panic. Panic over the state of the world. And sometimes, I would just feel angry. "How could they say that? How could they think that?" The world felt dark and chaotic. And I was drinking it in, cup after cup, right before bed. It was no way to "rest." I needed to come away from there. Here's how I did it, and what I learned.
- ["Do Not Be Offended By Me," A Story of Stillbirth and the Goodness of God](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2021/09/09/do-not-be-offended-by-me-a-story-of-stillbirth-and-the-goodness-of-god/) - In the few days between learning that Noah had died and giving birth to his lifeless body, I awakened throughout the night, unable to sleep, knowing that my child had passed away in my womb. During those nights, God filled my mind with Scriptures and songs. And I kept hearing that phrase, “Do not be offended by me.”
- [On Summer Soul Care + Surrendering Social Media](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2021/07/07/on-summer-soul-care-surrendering-social-media/) - What if there is a beautiful view He wants you to see—but social media is keeping a pair of blurry glasses over your eyes? What if there is something He wants to say—but social media is adding in the clamor of a thousand other voices into your ears, drowning Him out? I’m not promising you that if you surrender social media the rest of this summer it will be an earthquake , or a wind, or a fire, but perhaps, it will simply be His still small voice, whispering, telling you something that no one else can tell you. Because He is God.
- [How To Not Waste Your Summer](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2021/06/22/how-to-not-waste-your-summer/) - Summer is like a wedding. Pedals float through the air. Birds sing. The sticky aroma of peony’s and primroses blooming, giving off their beautiful fragrance. I feel like God is alluring me--to Himself as I walk through my neighborhood and watch the petals dance in the breeze. It’s as if He’s calling out, “Come to Me, Come to Me, Come to Me.”
- [The Last Time You Nurse Your Baby](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2021/05/23/the-last-time-you-nurse-your-baby/) - Nobody talks about it. The last time you nurse your baby. You hear about the "guilt" moms experience when they wean their child, or go back to work. But what you don't hear about though, is the grief. The quiet grief of weaning.
- [A COVID Miracle](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2021/04/10/a-covid-miracle/) - “Selah, what’s the Coronavirus?” Jesse asked, his blue eyes peering into hers. “It’s what Grandpa died of,” she said, looking straight into his eyes. “Oh,” Jesse said with a look of concern. “But he’s in heaven now, Jesse, and one day we will see him again," Selah said, speaking the words I had so often comforted her with.
- [If Your Christmas Miracle Didn't Come, Don't Forget the One That Did](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2018/12/24/if-your-christmas-miracle-didnt-come-dont-forget-the-one-that-did/) - For some reason Christmas was the hardest, when I wanted to have a baby, and couldn't. There was just something so magical, and warm, and bright--that made me feel like I should be pregnant. By now. Maybe it was all the hope, or the wonder, that seemed to stir the longing just a little bit
- [The Forgotten Adoption Option](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2020/12/22/the-forgotten-adoption-option/) - Foster care adoption often gets confused with foster care. But they are not exactly the same. Foster care is when a child needs a temporary place to stay while their biological caregivers work on becoming more stable and safe. The goal of foster care is for children to reunify (go back to) their biological families. And that happens 50% percent of the time. The other 50% of the time, the child becomes legally free to be adopted. Many do not know that there are children in foster care who are ready to be adopted and you can adopt them without being a foster parent. Marcy's new book shares all about how to adopt through foster care adoption, and equips readers to walk this road, know what to expect, and how to prepare!
- [Dear Christians, You Were Born For Such A Time As This COVID-19](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2020/03/22/dear-christians-you-were-born-for-such-a-time-as-this-covid-19/) - Dear Christians, You were born for such a time as this. Yes. For this pandemic. This COVID-19. And you have been training your whole life for this. Your whole life. This time, when the world pauses together, and weeps together. And no one knows what's going to happen next, or how bad it's going to get. This grief. This fear. This standing still. The gasping, the panting, the reaching out... of a dying world.
- [Listen to my "Made for Hope" Podcast Interview](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2020/11/23/listen-to-my-made-for-hope-podcast-interview/) - In this episode, we talk openly about the unexpected struggle of infertility. The despair, lonliness, and confusion--but also how the Lord met me in an unexpected and powerful way. I share how the Lord pursued me, spoke to me, and showed me more of who He was, so that my eyes could be opened to His beauty. (I also share ways you can support and honor a friend walking through infertility.) So, please tune into our conversation, I believe it will encourage your heart, no matter what season you are in.
- [Get My FREE Gratitude Journal: Blooms in the Desert](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2020/11/13/get-my-free-gratitude-journal-blooms-in-the-desert/) - That's why I've created this FREE Gratitude Journal for you to download and start today! It's called, "Blooms in the Desert: A gratitude journal to help you find the beauty of God right where you are." It's a simple way to begin the practice of thanking God for the little things in your life--especially if you are in a difficult season, and aren't sure how to start.
- [3 Ways to Nurture a New Mom](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2020/11/06/3-ways-to-nurture-a-new-mom/) - When we were TTC, I used to imagine that birth was the "end" of the story. It was the "Happily Ever After," I longed for. Perhaps birth was the end to my "infertility" story. However, birth is never the end of a story, rather, it's always the beginning of another story. And sometimes, I think
- [10 Things Every Christian Will Be Tempted To Forget After The Election](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/11/08/10-things-every-christian-will-be-tempted-to-forget-after-the-election/) - God's Kingdom is not of this world. It would have been nice if when Jesus came to earth, He set up a perfect, flawless government system to keep us all in perfect peace--but He didn't. That's not why He came. He didn't come to be a political figure. The Jews would have loved to see a Messiah that looked like a king, and brought a kingdom, and enforced it here on the earth. But that is not at all what Jesus did. When Jesus was arrested and brought to Pilate, he answered, "My kingdom is not of this world. If My kingdom were of this world, My servants would fight, so that I should not be delivered to the Jews; but now My kingdom is not from here." John 18:36 He didn't come up to set up a political power. But to unveil His spiritual power. And to rescue us from our sin.
- [How to drop the dread, and embrace hope this fall](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2020/09/29/how-to-drop-the-dread-and-embrace-hope-this-fall/) - Because no matter what else happens this crazy year–Jesus already knows about it. And whether the sky comes crashing down in giant flaming pieces, or the mountains burst apart and fall into the heart of the sea, or world war breaks out to the ends of the earth, or (I could list A LOT of my worst case scenarios here…but I will spare you the details of my own crazy mind.) The point is, no matter what happens, Jesus promises this: “I give them eternal life, and they will never perish, and no one will snatch them out of my hand.” John 10:28 No one will snatch them out of my hand.
- [My Desperate Need For God During Pregnancy](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2019/05/28/my-desperate-need-for-god-during-pregnancy/) - It was New Year's Eve, and I had no idea. Even as we drank our special drinks, and counted down, and cheered, and kissed--I had no idea. I had no idea I was pregnant. And I had no idea how hard this year was going to be. I didn't know that my world was about
- [How Gratitude is the Wind Before the Rain](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2020/08/04/how-gratitude-is-the-wind-before-the-rain/) - Ann Voskamp says, "Gratitude precedes the miracle." Just like the breeze precedes the rain. Because as we thank God for what He has already abundantly given, we see and remember what He has already given us. And we see that He is enough. He does something in our hearts. He prepares us to receive His rain.
- [5 Unexpected Joys of Homeschooling (And Why You Might Actually Like It)](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2020/06/17/5-unexpected-joys-of-homeschooling-and-why-you-might-actually-like-it/) - Since the COVID-19 pandemic, more moms (than ever before) are wondering what their options are for next school year. Because of the possibility of children being required to wear masks, and other "restrictions" and guidelines, some parents feel the school "system" will become an even more "systemic," and sterile environment. (Not the vibrant, hands-on enivronment we are used to in the younger years.) Some parents are wondering, deep down, "Would it be better (would my child thrive more) at home, than at school?" Here are 5 unexpected joys I discovered through homeschooling.
- [It's Not Your Fault He's Not A Dad](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/06/19/its-not-your-fault-hes-not-a-dad/) - You saw the way he was beaming at her--as she carried his baby carefully against her chest. She didn't even catch his glance, her husband's proud gaze. But you did. And something shifted in your heart. And you wish you could give this gift to your husband. The gift of children. The gift of being
- [When God Takes You From Barren to Beautiful](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2018/01/09/god-takes-you-barren-beautiful/) - Imagine a barren land. The earth is dry, and cracked. Nothing grows there. There is no water. No life. Now, imagine a beautiful land. It's warm, the sun is shining down, warming your face. Green meadows, and forests, and flowers are springing up everywhere. Rivers, streams, and waterfalls. A place so alive, you can almost
- ["Am I Enough?"](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/05/23/am-i-enough/) - This week my husband walks in the door after a long day at work to find: dishes piled in the sink, laundry all over the living room, the beef for dinner still in a frozen block, and me...looking like Frump Queen. He is gracious. And tells me to take a nap. I instantly obey. (Inwardly rejoicing.)
- [Why God Took So Long To Give Me A Baby](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/09/21/why-god-took-so-long-to-give-me-a-baby/) - I was painting in the garage, and she was drawing a rainbow on the cement floor with chalk when she said, "I'm glad God gave me you to me as my Mommy." I wasn't ready for it. "What?" I asked, making sure I heard her right. She tried to say it again, but her words
- [Does Missions Separate Families?](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/01/06/does-missions-separate-families/) - Tomorrow, my brother-in-law and his family will get on a plane, and fly to Africa. I won't see them again for three years, except by some emailed photos, or maybe a choppy Skype connection. I joke that I am going to sabotage their trip to the airport. And part of me really wants
- [Motherhood Is A Beautiful Calling, But It's Not The Only One](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2018/03/18/motherhood-is-a-beautiful-calling-but-its-not-the-only-one/) - I remember feeling like I was waiting for life to start. Like it couldn't start--until I saw those two blue lines on the pregnancy test. What I didn't realize, what I had become blind to, is that... it already had. This was the life God had given me. Whether it involved babies, or not.
- [Spring Is A Time To Hope](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2020/05/13/spring-is-a-time-to-hope/) - I didn't know that we'd be inside for days on end while it rained, and snowed, and it felt like Spring itself would only tease us, but never actually come. And the days would all bleed into eachother, and so would we. I didn't know just how desperately I would need this one thing: Hope. It’s a Hallmark-y sounding kind of word. At least, it was. To me. But now hope is something else. Something more. Something alive. Something like these tucked-in tulips. Withdrawn and inward. But quietly getting ready to bloom. Separate, yet together.
- [The God of Empty Rooms](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/02/16/the-god-of-empty-rooms/) - Our first apartment was the size of a postage stamp. And I didn't think about it so much then. Empty rooms. Because we didn't have any. But when we bought our first house. There was this one room. It was painted a beautiful shade of pink and had the name "Hannah" on the wall. It
- [Listen to my Audio Infertility Wilderness Story](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2020/04/30/listen-to-my-audio-infertility-wilderness-story/) - Are you thirsty? Are you restless? I was. Especially in the season of infertility. I was trying my HARDEST to read scripture, and to hope in the Lord... but my soul was all over the place. And pretty soon, I found myself in a dry, barren season of the soul. The wilderness. And no one could save me from it. Except, Jesus. You see, something about Jesus, is that He is not afraid to enter wildernesses. He is not afraid of the dry, barren places within us. He's not afraid of our hard questions, or tears.
- [It's Okay To Just Be Quiet For A While](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2020/04/07/its-okay-to-just-be-quiet-for-a-while/) - I need to weep, and I need to pray. And I need to feel. And I need to cry. And I know that seems so "unproductive." Like a waste. I've felt guilty about it. Like I should be "doing" more. But what if feeling, and grieving, and praying...actually is "productive." What if it's a part of the process?
- ["Soul Thirst" (Day 1 of "Watered in the Wilderness")](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2020/02/06/soul-thirst-day-1-of-watered-in-the-wilderness/) - Perhaps no one in our country is dying of thirst for lack of water, but many are dying of another kind of thirst. Soul thirst. Soul thirst is the thirst you feel deep within you because you need to come into the presence of God and hear Him speak to you through His Word, the Bible.
- [Why Our Kids Need Us To Make More Messes ](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/05/27/why-our-kids-need-us-to-make-more-messes/) - It was just the two of us last weekend. While "Daddy" was seven hours away, camping and climbing in the mountains, my two-year-old daughter and I stayed home with the mountains of laundry in the living room. On Saturday night, we were having a rather lame evening and were both feeling a little restless and
- [Why I Really Need Jesus This Christmas](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/11/18/why-i-really-need-jesus-this-christmas/) - The whole house smelled like the sharp scent of Windex and furniture polish, mixed with something delicious baking in the oven, and the vacuum was always running. Mom gave us all a job to do, to get ready for their arrival. My grandparents. As soon as I finished my chores, I would stand at the
- [When All I Wanted For Christmas Was You](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/12/05/when-all-i-wanted-for-christmas-was-you/) - This Christmas season my almost-3-year-old daughter will "help" decorate: She will yank on the Christmas lights, and break ornaments, and stick her fingers in the cookie dough. But it hasn't always been this way. There were many quieter Christmases at our house. I remember just a few years ago, my husband and I were putting up
- [What If Your Baby Is Already In The Basket?](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2019/11/08/what-if-your-baby-is-already-in-the-basket/) - --An adoptive mother’s perspective on barrenness-- by Robyn Kremser [Watch Robyn's incredible adoption video-story here. ] There is just something about a baby in a basket that no one can resist. A tiny, precious, brand-new pink (or blue) bundle wrapped up in a swaddling blanket and lying in a brown woven basket is just too
- ["Waiting in Hope": An Infertility Ministry You Need to Know About](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2019/10/24/waiting-in-hope-an-infertility-ministry-you-need-to-know-about/) - I was too embarrassed to talk about it. My infertility, that is. Maybe it was privacy, or maybe it was pride--but I couldn't bring myself to talk about my infertility except with my husband, and doctor. (The Lord knew, of course, and I cried out to Him regularly.) But as far as other women, or
- [Our Newest Miracle Was Born!](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2019/09/02/our-newest-miracle-was-born/) - She came three weeks early, but exactly on time. ~Zion Joy~ Born August 29, 2019 5:45 p.m. 6 lbs. 4 oz. 19 1/2 inches "For the Lord comforts Zion; he comforts all her waste places and makes her wilderness like Eden, her desert like the garden of the Lord; joy and gladness will be found
- [Emily's Secondary Infertility Testimony: Beauty from Ashes](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2019/08/15/emilys-secondary-infertility-testimony-beauty-from-ashes/) - It wasn’t anything special. Just a little grey onesie hanging there that said, “Hello world." I walked away thinking, how silly, but as I tried to walk away, I felt so strongly to turn around. So, I did.
- ["Full-Time Ministry" Isn't What I Thought It Would Be](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2019/07/23/full-time-ministry-isnt-what-i-thought-it-would-be/) - Full-time ministry doesn't need a stage. Or a microphone. It doesn't need a passport. Or a huge following. It just needs you. Right here. Right now. Offering all of your heart. To Jesus.
- ["Full-Time Ministry" Isn't What I Thought It Was](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2019/07/18/full-time-ministry-isnt-what-i-thought-it-was/) - I was kneeling on the carpet, beside his crib in the dark, reaching my arm through the crib bars and softly rubbing his little back, singing "Jesus Loves Me," trying to soothe him from crying, when suddenly, there on my knees: I had a flashback. It must have been my posture. The kneeling, the singing,
- ["Full-Time Ministry" Wasn't What I Thought It Was](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2019/07/21/full-time-ministry-wasnt-what-i-thought-it-was/) - I was kneeling on the carpet, beside his crib in the dark, reaching my arm through the crib bars and softly rubbing his little back, singing "Jesus Loves Me," trying to soothe him from crying, when suddenly, there on my knees: I had a flashback. It must have been my posture. The kneeling, the singing,
- [Keristan's Secondary Infertility Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2019/05/22/keristans-secondary-infertility-testimony/) - It was such a teaching opportunity for our first daughter. She would long for and shed tears for a sibling. All we could do as parents was to encourage her to pray and teach her that Jesus would be her forever friend no matter whether we were blessed with another child or not.
- [A Third Miracle On the Way](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2019/03/10/a-third-miracle-on-the-way/) - There was a time, a long time ago, when I sat on the bathroom floor and wept for just one child. I didn't know what would happen. I prayed God would give us a child, but I never "claimed" that He would. How could I know the mystery of God? And yet, several years later,
- [Paige's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2019/02/06/paiges-testimony/) - I was never one to have a strong desire for a “career.” In the loosest sense of the term, I wanted my “worldly” priorities to be a wife, and once I was married, a mother. My husband did not feel as ready as I did, so we waited for 2 years before he began to
- [About This Blog](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/02/02/about-this-blog/) - The goal of this blog: is that you won’t be barren anymore. What is barrenness? Barrenness: (adj.) - an emptiness of the soul. A thirst not quenched. A longing for something not yet received. A place of waiting. Wondering. An awareness of the “lack” of something desired. And the inability to produce it. Let me
- [Can We Talk About New Year's Resolutions and Shame?](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2018/12/31/can-we-talk-about-new-years-resolutions-and-shame/) - Most years, I spend the final days leading up to New Year's Eve in reflection of the past year. I eagerly begin making my resolutions, and sharpening my focus for the year to come. But not this year. I just didn't want to reflect on my past year. I didn't want to think about what
- [Robin's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2018/12/21/robins-testimony/) - [Before you read this testimony, you need to know, Robin is a personal friend of mine. While she was experiencing infertility, I had asked her if she would be willing to help me format the testimonies that so many women were submitting to Barren to Beautiful. The crazy part is, she was the person who
- [You Are Chosen, Not Forsaken](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2018/11/04/you-are-chosen-not-forsaken/) - The candle flickered in the dark as I sat at on the bathroom floor, crying. I leaned against the wall, pressing my face on my knees, wiping away tears and questions. It was late, my husband was asleep. But I was there, whispering to God through the darkness. "Why can everyone have a baby...
- [How Do You Raise A Miracle?](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2018/09/04/how-do-you-raise-a-miracle/) - Our babies did not come easily to us. We had to wait long, soul-stretching seasons for them. We cried, and prayed, and waited. But after many long nights, and months, and years, they came. At just the right time. God gave them to us. They are miracles. Both of them. And sometimes, as they are
- [Why It's Okay To Just Be Broken](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2018/07/24/why-its-okay-to-just-be-broken/) - “Isn’t it about time for you two to start having kids?” came the question. I looked up from fixing my coffee at church, while the man waited for a response. I forced a smile, as hard as I could, “Oh, I don’t know!” I tried to let out a little laugh, like the thought had
- [When God Slows You Down](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2018/06/26/when-god-slows-you-down/) - Today I am sitting on my bed with a big ice pack on my foot. It's not what I planned on doing today. But here we are. How did this happen? Was I running a marathon? Or, carrying something heavy through the garage? No. I was taking a shower. I was simply taking a shower
- [On Loving Your Actual Life](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2018/06/01/on-loving-your-actual-life/) - I had just gotten the kids to sleep when I walked downtstairs into the kitchen. Dishes were scattered and stacked on the counter. A half-eaten hamburger was on one of the plates. Ketchup had dried on my son's highchair tray. And sippy cups and bottles and a box of Lucky Charms. Ugh. Maybe if the
- [Betsy's Testimony: God's Got It](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/06/20/betsys-testimony-gods-got-it/) - As I write down my thoughts and dreams, my interactions of each day I can truly see myself as a whole person these days. But it wasn’t always this way … I can look back into my “diary” and see the transaction from the last few years, last few months, mainly the last few
- [Little Boy,](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2018/05/18/little-boy/) - I still remember when I saw it. The blue dust that burst out of the sealed container, and fell on our heads, and in our hair, and on our skin. My hands covered my mouth. My husband's arms shot up in the air like he just scored a touchdown. And our daughter, Selah, who was
- [Mother's Day and the Barren Woman](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/05/09/mothers-day-and-the-barren-woman/) - Every mother at our church had a special glow about her. Perhaps she took 10 more minutes on her hair, or saved that special new Kohl's outfit just for today. Maybe it was the scrambled breakfast platter that two shaky hands brought to her bedside this morning, or the half-dead flower her 5-year-old tried to "hide" behind his curtain all
- [To The Woman Still Longing To Be A Mom](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/07/13/to-the-woman-still-longing-to-be-a-mom/) - I am thinking of you tonight. Actually, I think of you often. I know how you feel when you walk through the Baby section at Target. Maybe with a gift registry in your hand, and wonder if you will ever own a tiny bathtub like the one you are buying. You wonder if you will
- [This Is The Greatest Show](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2018/02/28/this-is-the-greatest-show/) - I didn't enter motherhood easily. I had to wait for it. I cried and wept for my babies, before they came to me. And now they're here. My daughter is five, and my son is one, and somehow, in the chaos of our days, in the crumbs on the kitchen floor, I forget the wonder.
- [Yvonne's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/12/12/yvonnes-testimony/) - My name is Yvonne, from South Africa. I must say, it was the Holy Spirit that directed me to this blog. I remember the day I clicked on your link, I was broken, I was drained, and I had no strength, the whole past week I kept on asking God, "What have I done? What
- [Dear Jesse,](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/12/14/dear-jesse/) - You turn one today little boy. At this time last year, I will never forget it. I was laboring with you in the hospital. Daddy was cheering me on, like an angel, whispering at my bedside. My midwife came in and rubbed my back. But labor with you went on, and on. It lasted 30
- [Why We Named Her Selah](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2018/01/25/why-we-named-her-selah/) - I remember when they placed her slippery little body on my chest. She was warm and wet and sweet smelling. Selah. I remember the way her Daddy held her that night, swaying with her like a slow dance. Not even knowing how many times they would sway just like that, as they'd dance in the
- [Crystal's Testimony: I Need To Be Enough For You](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/06/06/crystals-testimony/) - When I hear the word “barren," I find it offensive. Not because I view myself as barren. I actually don’t. If I view myself that way, I feel I’ve accepted defeat. I’ve given up. I’ve reserved myself to the fear that God has forgotten me and my desire to be a mother. No, I’m not
- [Kristen's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2018/01/02/kristens-testimony/) - I always knew I wanted to be a mom. I didn't dream about a career or spouse - just kids. I started babysitting at a young age and loved every moment. I fell in love with an amazing man and was married. We were young and wanted to finish up school before starting our own
- [Your Grace Is Enough For Me](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/12/11/your-grace-is-enough-for-me/) - It's Summer 2016 and it's early morning. The beautiful glow of dawn fills the sunroom as I tip-toe in while my husband and daughter still sleep, and I sit with my steaming coffee, Bible open, and journal--and meet with God. And He with me. I sit and cry, and pray. I read Scripture and marvel
- [How God Has Been Moving at Barren to Beautiful](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/12/03/god-moving-barren-beautiful/) - Things have been a little quieter on my blog this month--and I want to share why. Behind the scenes, God has been moving in a mighty way. Just like when a seed is planted in the dirt--it doesn't look like anything is happening. But it is. Underground--life is taking form, and suddenly, it pushes through
- [Nadia's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/11/28/nadias-testimony/) - My journey started 5 years ago when I was blessed with the most amazing husband. We wanted to start a family as soon as possible. Little did we know...after a million (it sure felt like a million) negative pregnancy tests we decided to get tested; we were diagnosed with unexplained infertility. We went to different
- [Amanda's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/11/14/amandas-testimony/) - In 2014, we decided it was time to grow our family. My husband and I knew that there could be roadblocks because I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome). We set out with our trust in God that it would happen, but then my cycle stopped altogether. We were referred to an endocrinologist who specializes in
- [Sarah's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/10/31/sarahs-testimony/) - My name is Sarah and I am married to David. It will be our 10th Wedding Anniversary next year in January. We got pregnant with our first child about 2.5 years after we got married. This pregnancy was fine and we gave birth to a healthy son at 42 weeks gestation via emergency c-section. So,
- [Infertility Bible Reading Plan: Yet I Will Rejoice](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/10/26/infertility-bible-reading-plan-yet-will-rejoice/) - Have you ever wondered what God says about infertility? About not getting pregnant? About deeply longing and desiring something you don't have? When I was trying to conceive, I felt like my emotions were constantly rising and falling with my hormones, mood swings and my (ever faithful) periods. The only place I could find any
- [Ruth's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/10/17/ruths-testimony/) - I married my high school sweetheart and while getting married at age 19 certainly would pose its share of challenges, I was no stranger to the valleys and desert places we can find ourselves in when God's plan doesn't seem to fit with the expectations we set in our hearts. My mom went to
- [Stephanie's Testimony: When God Grows Your Family His Own Way](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/10/03/stephanies-testimony/) - It had been two and half years of trying. Praying. Hoping. Testing. And nothing to show for it. We made an appointment, and found ourselves in the fertility specialist’s office, eager for answers. It was there we learned of the obstacles standing in our way. Endometriosis, and multiple cysts in each ovary. I immediately began
- [Connie's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/09/26/connies-testimony/) - For the past two years, I have been on a new type of rollercoaster ride with so many moving parts and this has definitely challenged me in my faith. I felt like if I'm special to God, why haven't I been blessed with children? For a while, I didn’t plan to share this until
- [Adrie's Testimony: When Dreams Come True](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/09/19/adries-testimony-when-dreams-come-true/) - As I am writing this, I get to stare at my now almost four year old miracle baby daughter. A daughter that was not suppose to be here without struggling to concieve. But God's timing and miracle's are beyond human comprehension... You see, I suffer from PCOS and rarely have regular periods. When I was
- [Adrie's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/09/19/adries-testimony/) - As I am writing this, I get to stare at my now almost four year old miracle baby daughter. A daughter that was not suppose to be here without struggling to concieve. But God's timing and miracle's are beyond human comprehension... You see, I suffer from PCOS and rarely have regular periods. When I was
- [Stacie's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/09/12/stacies-testimony/) - When my husband and I made the decision to start trying for a family I thought it would be easy. According to my plan and timing. I took getting pregnant for granted, my sister got pregnant right away so I thought I would too, but… GOD’S WAY IS BEST! As the weeks turned into months
- [Danielle's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/09/05/danielles-testimony/) - My husband and I had gotten married in 2012 and had always been open to starting a family from the beginning. Naturally, I thought this was going to just happen because I came from a family that could easily get pregnant. My internal struggle began after months of feeling disappointed. My heart longed to
- [Don't Throw Yourself Away](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/08/29/dont-throw-yourself-away/) - "What's this?" My husband said holding something at the top of the stairs. "Why was it in the trash?" He walked down the steps holding it in his hand. It was a picture. Of me, when I was fifteen. I remember it was taken by my friend during a sleep-over at her house. I'm just
- [Bethany's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/08/29/bethanys-testimony/) - After being married for seven years, my husband and I decided we were ready to start a family. After three or four months of trying, we were thrilled to learn we were pregnant! Sadly, we miscarried at 14 weeks. I always pictured myself as a strong woman who wouldn't be very emotional. So, I was
- [Don't Forget To Add Love](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/08/25/dont-forget-to-add-love/) - I have a confession. My husband makes better chocolate chip cookies than I do. "It's the dough," he tells me. My cookie dough is always over worked, and my cookies are flat as pancakes. "You shouldn't use that "thing," he says. By that "thing," he means my Kitchen Aid mixer. He calls it the "machine."
- [Angela's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/08/22/angelas-testimony/) - My husband and I both come from a large family and we dreamed of having a big family, too. Everything seemed so perfect when we decided to have a baby. And then the disappointment set in. Months and months passed. All around us people were having babies. Then years passed and those people had more
- [Eva's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/08/15/evas-testimony/) - It has been my prayer that the Lord would receive glory from the story He is writing in my life. I am so overwhelmed by His love toward us that it is truly a humbling experience to tell you now what He has done! Growing up I always thought I would get married and have
- [Tanya's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/08/08/tanyas-testimony/) - I'd like to share my testimony to all the ladies out there. Keep on keeping on, and trust in God with all your heart and soul. He knows the plans He has for you. Two years ago, my husband and I decided we were ready to start a family. Although we were no strangers to
- [Bonnie's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/07/31/bonnies-testimony/) - It's Testimony Tuesday! Bonnie is here to share her testimony with us: A few short weeks after meeting my soulmate and future husband, we were already planning our lives together. Being an only child myself, we wanted to have both a boy and a girl and had their names already picked. We got married
- [Kay's Testimony: Miracle After Miscarriages](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/07/24/kays-testimony-miracle-after-miscarriages/) - "I would like to share my experience hoping that I could give hope to someone else. And to remind each and everyone's heart that truly nothing is impossible with God. Let me start by saying that God blessed me with a beautiful baby girl whom I easily conceived with no problems at all. She was
- [Why Dishes Are Still In My Sink](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/07/22/why-dishes-are-still-in-my-sink/) - I didn't finish my dishes tonight. I love when they are finished. Because I can come down to clean kitchen the next morning, brew my coffee and start the day fresh. But I didn't finish them tonight. Half are still soaking in the sink. With food stuck to the plates. And BBQ sauce sticking to
- [Lindi's Testimony: Before the Victory](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/07/18/lindis-testimony-before-the-victory/) - Thirty-one months…that’s how long we’ve been waiting for God to do a miracle. Is this the longest anyone has ever had to wait? By far not… But for us, it’s been thirty-one very longs months. In July 2014, my husband and I made the big decision that we’re going to start trying for a baby.
- [Kelly's Testimony: Don't Get Lost In The Storm](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/07/11/kellys-testimony-dont-get-lost-in-the-storm/) - My journey with infertility started over 13 years ago, in April 2003. My cycles were unpredictable. I eventually learned that my body did not ovulate on its own… or so the doctor said. Over those 13 years, I internalized my emotional roller coaster and I began to eat my emotions. At my largest, I was
- [Kayla's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/07/04/kaylas-testimony/) - My husband and I got married in August 2004. We turned our lives over to God in August 2006. After that we decided it was time to start a family. After 6 months of trying to conceive, I was pregnant! We were over the moon excited. However, I sadly had a miscarriage at about 7
- [Gloria's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/06/13/glorias-testimony/) - As a little girl, I always knew when I grew up I wanted a big family. As I got older, I feared I wouldn't have one! I got married at the young age of nineteen to my high-school sweetheart. After almost two years of marriage, we decided to start trying to conceive. A whole year
- [Karen's Testimony](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/05/30/karens-testimony/) - When I was a little girl I had no bigger dream in life than to become a mommy. I had it all planned out. I would marry the man of my dreams and we would have two wonderful children. First a girl, then two to three years later, a boy. It was going to be
- [I Love How God Made You](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/05/22/i-love-how-god-made-you/) - I was standing in my black bathrobe with sopping wet, just-showered hair hanging down my back, waiting for my coffee to finish brewing, when my 4-year-old daughter said out of no where, "Mom! You're the cutest one in our family!" She was gazing at me starry-eyed. Like I was a Disney princess. (And not a
- [At This Time Last Year...](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/04/04/at-this-time-last-year/) - At this time last year, I had no idea. At this time last year, I was washing crib sheets in Dreft for a foster-baby we were making room for. For a foster-baby we were prepping our home for. Our daughter for. Our hearts for. I was having my husband set up the crib. We were
- [What Postpartum Feels Like](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/04/01/what-postpartum-feels-like/) - It's April 1st, and my Christmas wreath is still hanging on our front door. Let that be an indication of how things are "going" in our household. My Facebook profile picture is still a maternity shot of me...and my baby boy who was born in December, is now 3 1/2 months old. So... I'm a
- [I Was Dreading My 30th Birthday Until My Daughter Said This...](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/03/04/i-was-dreading-my-30th-birthday-until-my-daughter-said-this/) - "I can't turn 30!" I was folding laundry in the living room and my 4-year-old daughter was sliding over the arm of the leather chair on her belly. She looked up at me and smiled. "Selah, I can't turn 30!" I said again, half serious, and half joking. She just giggled. (She continued pretending to
- [The Beauty Of Right Now](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/02/10/the-beauty-of-right-now/) - One day there won't be anymore smudges on my windows. I won't trip over toys in the hallway. Or in the shower. Everything will be in perfect order. I know this because when I go visit my parents house, it's clean. Freshly vacuumed, and furniture polished. Everything is as it should be. And I think,
- [To The Woman Who Saw Me At ALDI Today](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/01/27/to-the-woman-who-saw-me-at-aldi-today/) - I was feverishly chucking my groceries onto the conveyor belt today at ALDI, while my one-month-old son was screaming in-stereo. (If you are an ALDI shopper, you know how insanely fast the cashiers scan your items.) I felt everyone's eyes behind me as I was holding the binky in my son's mouth with one hand,
- [The Sacred Art of Remembering](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/01/13/the-sacred-art-of-remembering/) - Can I be honest? I've had a hard time engaging with God lately. Maybe it's because I'm 3 weeks post-partum and I'm a little thrown off my rocker. Or, maybe it's because it's the dead of winter. Either way, I finally made some time--just to meet with Him. My husband and daughter were out at a
- [Baby Boy Is Here](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2017/01/04/baby-boy-is-here/) - After a very long and intense 30-hour labor--our baby boy arrived on December 14th at 10:39 p.m. We named him Jesse Michael. Jesse which means "gift." And we are so in love. I never knew a boy could be so beautiful, but he is. Oh, it was the hardest day of my life. Laboring with
- [Dear Baby Boy,](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/11/29/dear-baby-boy/) - Dear Baby Boy, I should be sleeping now, but I can't. It's 5:04 a.m. and I'm wide awake--dreaming of you, here in the dark, as your Daddy sleeps next to me. I look through our door and see your room. Your crib ready...for you. And I miss you baby boy. I don't know how I
- [How I Found Joy During Infertility](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/11/04/how-i-found-joy-during-infertility/) - I had heard about "infertility" before I got married. But to be honest, I always kind of shrugged it off. I was sure there were people "out there" who couldn't get pregnant--but I never imagined I would be one of them. Why, you ask? Because I come from a very long line of "fertile" women.
- [To the Angels Without Wings](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/10/27/to-the-angels-without-wings/) - "We saw two abnormalities," the doctor said, "On your son's anatomy scan ultrasound." I shifted on the white sanitary paper that I sat on, making it crinkle. "One is a shiny spot on the heart, which could be a soft marker for Downs Syndrome, or, another genetic disease. And the the other abnormality is an
- [What Church Can't Do For You](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/10/18/what-church-cant-do-for-you/) - "Mom, look!" she said in a panic. "What?" I asked, to see what was the matter. "My flower is DEAD!" she cried. (It was.) "Well...did you water it?" I asked. "YES!" she cried. "I watered it at church!" That part was true. She watered this flower. One time. At church. (Two months ago.) She had
- [When You Want To Cry In Target](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/10/11/when-you-want-to-cry-in-target/) - I was at Target shopping for a birthday gift for a toddler's Star Wars party, when I suddenly realized...I wasn't looking for Darth Vader anymore. I had mindlessly drifted through the Legos, and Barbies, and halloween costumes, when I looked up and suddenly found myself... in the Baby section. The baby section at Target always takes
- [When You Want To Give Your Child A Sibling, But You Can't](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/09/30/when-you-want-to-give-your-child-a-sibling-but-you-cant/) - I heard her crying upstairs in her bed, and went up to check up on her. "What's wrong, honey?" I asked. I thought she was going to say she had a bad dream. Or that she needed a night-light on. Or she had to go potty. But what she said next, nearly took my breath
- [What If The Mountains You Face Aren't Mountains At All?](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/09/06/what-if-the-mountains-you-face-arent-mountains-at-all/) - I still remember the breathtaking view as we mounted the summit of the Continental Divide in Colorado. I had never seen real mountains before. (Just the kind we have in the East.) And my husband wanted to show me real mountains. I still remember, how massive they were, or how small I was in comparison.
- [When God Surprises You, Big Time](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/08/16/when-god-surprises-you-big-time/) - I had no idea what was coming. I had no idea I would be feeling baby kicks while I write this. I thought I knew the plan--and I thought it was different. Than this. Last January, we were experiencing our second round of infertility. We had been "trying" since my daughter turned one and I
- [When Did We Stop Taking Kissing Pictures?](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/08/13/when-did-we-stop-taking-kissing-pictures/) - I was walking on our treadmill last night, or rather waddling, at 20 weeks pregnant. And since I had no music or book to occupy me, as I usually do, I just stared at the wall. And on that wall, was a shelf. And on that shelf, were three framed pictures. And one of them
- [5 Officers Killed In Dallas And Truth For Your Soul](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/07/08/5-officers-killed-in-dallas-and-truth-for-your-soul/) - I turned on the TV this morning to find a kid show to watch for my daughter. But I didn't leave the channel. "CBS Live Report: 5 Officers Shot and Killed in Dallas." My heart sunk. My eyes widened and I stared, as the TV showed nightmarish scenes of these brave officers who were led
- [To the Mama Fleeing Terror Tonight](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/06/24/to-the-mama-fleeing-terror-tonight/) - We were sleeping over at my parents. All three of us in the little guest room. My husband and I were in the full-size bed, and my daughter, age 3, was in the Pack n' Play close beside. I woke up to her crying in her sleep. I reached down and rubbed her back, hoping
- [The Words We Whisper Over The Wombs Of Our Friends](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/06/09/the-words-we-whisper-over-the-wombs-of-our-friends/) - You have that friend that miscarried her baby. And she doesn't know, your heart aches for her all the time. She doesn't see your eyes well with tears, when you think of her. She doesn't hear you, when you whisper a prayer for her. "God, heal her womb. Heal her heart." Your whispers are so
- [God Did It Again: Our Second Miracle On the Way](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/05/13/god-did-it-again-our-second-miracle-on-the-way/) - Dear Friends, this is a post I never intended to write. But here I am writing it, with tears in my eyes, and a lump in my throat. And my hands feel shaky at these keys: I'm pregnant again. God did it. This will be our second miracle. And I had no idea, it was
- [4 Lies The Barren Woman Believes--Part 4](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/04/21/4-lies-the-barren-woman-believes-part-4/) - Today, is Lie #4 of the "4 Lies the Barren Woman Believe" mini-series. Be sure to check out Lie #1, Lie #2, and Lie #3 leading up to this one, if you missed them. And may the Truth set you free! Lie #4: God has forgotten me, otherwise, He would have given me a baby
- [4 Lies The Barren Woman Believes--Part 3](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/04/20/4-lies-the-barren-woman-believes-part-3/) - Today is Lie #3 of the the "4 Lies the Barren Woman Believes" mini-series. If you missed Lie #1 or #2, check out the two posts before this one. And may the Truth set you free! Lie #3: I can’t have children because I am not good enough. If I were more “righteous” God would
- [4 Lies The Barren Woman Believes--Part 2](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/04/19/4-lies-the-barren-woman-believes-part-2/) - Today, I am sharing Lie#2 of the "4 Lies The Barren Woman Believes" mini-series. See my last post, for Lie #1 if you missed it. And may the Truth set you free! Lie #2: You are not a woman. You won’t know the fullness of “womanhood” until you birth a child. And your husband won’t
- [4 Lies The Barren Woman Believes](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/04/18/4-lies-the-barren-woman-believes/) - During my struggle with infertility, there were about 4 big lies that I believed. It felt like a wrestling match--trying to get out from being constantly pinned down. Trying to struggle free. But it wasn't the "lies" that pinned me down, it was the "Liar" himself. He was the one who didn't want me up.
- [To The Woman Who Miscarried, Or Never Conceived](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/04/05/to-the-woman-who-miscarried-or-never-conceived/) - To The Woman Who Miscarried, Or Never Conceived, I'm thinking of you today. I see you every time I look out my window, I can't help it. There is a daffodil covered in ice. There are tree buds covered in snow. And I'm thinking of you, dear one. Last weekend, it was warm and breezy.
- [When Housework Gets The Best of You](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/03/30/when-housework-gets-the-best-of-you/) - No one saw me do it. But yesterday, in my bedroom, I rolled up a pair of my husband's khaki work pants, belt still in the belt loops, and chucked them against the wall. I was angry. Not at him. I was angry at all this housework. It just kept coming. At that moment, in
- [Don't Lose Sight Of Your Lover](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/03/24/dont-lose-sight-of-your-lover/) - We were in New York City when I lost sight of him. My husband--the fast walker. The only one who knew the way through the crowded streets. The only who knew how to get where we were going. He was only my boyfriend at the time--and you'd think as in crazy love as I was--I
- [When Sirens Sound Like Cries](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/03/10/when-sirens-sound-like-cries/) - I hear her crying. But find her sound asleep in her crib. It was the sirens. Outside. We live in the city now, and they are so frequent. They blend. The sounds. Only young mothers can hear how human they are, the sirens, like a voice, crying out, in the night. Only young mothers
- [I Will Be Like A Tree](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/03/05/i-will-be-like-a-tree/) - I will raise my arms, like branches before You. In worship. I will spread them wide, in surrender. I will be like a tree, before You. Sending out my roots into the dirt. Finding the water, hidden in the earth, deeper, deeper now. It's not what I thought, but it's there. Lower, and lower down.
- [How Spilled Cheerios Taught Me To Laugh](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/02/18/how-spilled-cheerios-taught-me-to-laugh/) - "Watch this, Mom!" my daughter said this morning at breakfast. Before I could respond, I watched her toss her bowl of dry Cheerios up in the air, and try to catch them in the bowl. "NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!" I screamed a deep, bellowing scream--as the Cheerios cascaded through the air and scattered all across the kitchen floor. "Ughh!!!"
- [How Spilled Cheerios Taught Me That Grace Laughs](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/02/17/how-spilled-cheerios-taught-me-that-grace-laughs/) - "Watch this, Mom!" my daughter said this morning at breakfast. Before I could respond, I watched her toss her bowl of dry Cheerios up in the air, and try to catch them in the bowl. "NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!" I screamed a deep, bellowing scream--as the Cheerios cascaded through the air and scattered all across the kitchen floor.
- [To The Woman Behind Me At Aldi's](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/01/29/to-the-woman-behind-me-at-aldis/) - By the time we made it to the check-out, our cart felt rather heavy. I had filled it full of party food for my daughter's Cinderella birthday party--and all the relatives who would be joining us to celebrate her turning three. In my joy, I hadn't realized how expensive it was going to be. After
- [How Fear Robs Me of the Life God Wants Me To Live](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2016/01/06/how-fear-robs-me-of-the-life-god-wants-me-to-live/) - They said the lump is probably nothing. But I can’t know yet. I have to wait. And my mind—it goes there every single day. I don’t mean for it to. It just…does. What if I’m dying and I don’t know it? What if I don’t have much time left? I am afraid to die. I am
- [8 Things I Learned This Year](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/12/31/8-things-i-learned-this-year/) - 1. I learned that I don't want to stay the same. I don't want to stay the same each year. I want my heart to grow, and expand. I want to continue to be transformed. I want my heart to be soft enough to keep changing. I hope my mercy and compassion for people grows each
- [Don't Forget The Miracle](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/12/10/dont-forget-the-miracle/) - It's 9:47 p.m. and she's still not sleeping. Though I put her to bed over an hour ago. It's bedtime--the never ending saga--of hugs, and kisses, and stories, and songs. And tears--because the door isn't cracked open enough to let the light in, and cups of water. And reassuring whispers in the dark. It's 10:15
- [How God Loves Us In Our Mess](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/11/21/how-god-loves-us-in-our-mess/) - I don’t remember what we were talking about when it happened. I just remember I was having a nice time eating my buffalo chicken salad in the booth of the restaurant when my Mom cried out, “Oh no! Bekah!” But it was too late. My two-year-old daughter who was sitting in my lap, began throwing
- [Why I Couldn't Be Happier About Starbucks Red Cup This Year](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/11/12/why-i-couldnt-be-happier-about-starbucks-red-cup-this-year/) - Many Christians are in an uproar about Starbucks red cups this year. Why? You may wonder? It's because these notoriously and long awaited "red" cups, which signify the Christmas season, came out blank this year. Just a plain red cup. (Unless one degree of ombre counts as a design.) In years past, these cups have
- [Red Cups Redeemed, Thank You Starbucks](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/11/12/red-cups-redeemed-thank-you-starbucks/) - Many Christians are in an uproar about Starbucks red cups this year. Why? You may wonder? It's because these notoriously and long awaited "red" cups, which signify the Christmas season, came out blank this year. Just a plain red cup. (Unless one degree of ombre counts as a design.) In years past, these cups have
- [The Secret Beauty Of Being A Mom](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/10/09/the-secret-beauty-of-being-a-mom/) - She doesn’t know it, but the note she sent me stays by my kitchen sink. She doesn’t know it, but I’m still thinking about what she said to me on the phone today. She doesn’t know it, but I still desperately need her. I need her words. Her warmth. Her love. She lives 93 miles
- [How To Create A Schedule (Or Rhythm) For Your Week + Giveaway](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/09/23/how-to-create-a-schedule-or-rhythm-for-your-weekgiveaway/) - This guest post was written by the first "mommy blogger" I fell in love with, during my first fragile months as a new mom. Her name is Jeanne Harrison from Loving My Lot and I am so honored to have her share some "real-life" wisdom with us when it comes to creating a schedule. How
- [Why Our Homemaking Will Never Be Good Enough](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/09/21/why-our-homemaking-will-never-be-good-enough/) - Last winter, there were days I so hated living in my house. My house with it’s doors that froze shut during bitter temperatures, and windows that leaked with the melting snow, and my ugly kitchen floor staring at me day after day. But my husband would come home and get out his guitar and sit
- [What Is The Purpose Of Homemaking?](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/09/14/what-is-the-purpose-of-homemaking/) - Do you ever feel angry while doing the dishes? Maybe you bang and clang the pots and pans around extra loud after dinner as you're filling the sink, or slam the kitchen cupboards a little extra hard? Maybe as the family relaxes after dinner you want to shout, rather sarcastically, "Don't worry about me! I'll
- [Introducing "The Free-Spirit Homemaker Series"](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/09/08/introducing-the-free-spirit-homemaker-series/) - If you’ve ever burned the grilled cheese, and served it anyway (after scraping off the “black” side with a knife)… If you’ve ever let the clothes “stink” in the washer. And tried to get away with it by tossing extra dryer sheets in to cover up the smell (so that all your clothes end up
- [Why Free-Spirits Are Naturally Terrible Homemakers](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/09/04/why-free-spirits-are-naturally-terrible-homemakers-3/) - Some women are “naturally” good homemakers. They are innately organized, tidy, and clean. So there are never crumbs on the kitchen counter, or dishes left in the sink overnight. They have this God-given desire to bring order to chaos, to actually wash clothes according to their instruction labels, and to arrive to places on time.
- [The Zombie Mommy In The Mirror](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/08/28/the-zombie-mommy-in-the-mirror/) - Last night, when I saw my reflection in the mirror, it actually startled me. My daughter was simply brushing her teeth, and I was helping her steer her toothbrush into her mouth and away from the nasty drain (where she likes to put it). And when I glanced up into the mirror, I jumped. Because
- [To The One Feeling Major Anxiety With The Start Of The School Year](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/08/23/to-the-one-feeling-major-anxiety-with-the-start-of-the-school-year/) - When I was a kid, I used to be terrified the night before school started. So much, that I couldn't sleep. So much that one year, my little sister and I decided to get out of bed and do jumping jacks--just to make us tired enough to sleep. (Of course we got in big trouble
- [All I See Are Blooms](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/08/16/all-i-see-are-blooms/) - She’s supposed to be sleeping, but instead, I hear her across the hall. She’s laying in her bed, telling her “knock knock” joke to her stuffed horse. And chattering softly to herself, to her stuffed animals. And to any angels who may be listening in. I’m sitting on the bed, typing, just to let my
- [Three Little Words That Ignite Friendship](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/08/12/three-little-words-that-ignite-friendship/) - They are just three little words. But they are hard to say. And they're not, "I love you." They are more honest than that. They are more desperate than that. They are more powerful than that. And they are what real friendship is made of. I heard my little sister say those three little words
- [Does Infertility Affect Friendships?](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/08/05/does-infertility-affect-friendships/) - “So…do you guys think you might, I mean, someday, ever want to have kids?” My friend asks me as we play with her toddler on the floor. I see the curve of her belly, pregnant with their second. She doesn’t know we’ve actually been trying for over a year—with no success of conceiving. She doesn’t
- [To The Woman Who Thought She Was Pregnant When She Wasn't](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/07/30/to-the-woman-who-thought-she-was-pregnant-when-she-wasnt/) - Maybe you thought your belly was starting to curve. Maybe you let out your gut in front of the mirror after your shower, and could swear it was protruding. Maybe you felt a wave of nausea on the drive to work. Maybe your bra felt tighter than usual. Maybe you felt extra tired this month.
- [You Know He's A Good Dad When...](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/06/16/you-know-hes-a-good-dad-when/) - You know he's a good dad when...she is crying in the night, and he gets out of bed and goes into her room to soothe her. And after a few minutes, you don't hear her crying anymore... You hear her laughing. In fact, you hear them both laughing. (And you roll your eyes and groan
- [When Motherhood Gets Messy](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/07/20/when-motherhood-gets-messy/) - “Don’t touch Mommy when she’s on the potty.” This is an actual rule in our house. One of those rules you never imagine making before entering motherhood, but makes total sense after the fact. My daughter is two, and when I’m on the toilet, she likes to stand right up next to me, with her
- [When Your Child Comforts You](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/06/24/when-your-child-comforts-you/) - "You okay, Mommy?" she said, pressing herself onto the arm of the overstuffed leather chair. Through my tears, I could see her wild-blonde bedhead, blurring into her pink Disney Princess pajamas. "No," I said with perfect honesty. "Mommy is sad," my voice cracked. I had just got the news that morning: a dear friend's brain
- [When God Calls Your Marriage Out Upon the Waters](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/06/11/when-god-calls-your-marriage-out-upon-the-waters/) - It was a hot June day, when I glowed in white all the way down the aisle. And he beamed, he beamed brighter than the sun with love, and joy, and promise. It was so easy then, as I walked barefoot through the sand, holding my Dad's hand--and saying 'Yes' to all God planned. And
- [A Morning Prayer: "Conform Me To Jesus"](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/06/03/conform-me-to-jesus/) - I'm going to let you inside for a moment. My journal. Just for this. Because I started praying something last week, and it started to change me. It started to set me free and open up joy in me. And I want to share it with you--so that you can be free. And so that
- [The Day She Stopped Hearing His Lies](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/05/19/the-day-she-stopped-hearing-his-lies/) - It was just an ordinary day, she stood in the kitchen, at the sink...when he came in. The Voice of Despair. She didn't notice at first, but soon could feel his darkness enter the room. It started with a thought, as small as a seed, he planted in her mind. And the seed took
- [That Moment You Decide You Want to be a Mom](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/05/07/that-moment-you-decide-you-want-to-be-a-mom/) - I was terrified of getting pregnant too soon. I heard horror stories of honeymoon babies. And I made sure we would not let that happen. We needed a few years to build our relationship. To grow as a couple. Just. As. A. Couple. Plus, I wanted my body to be remotely attractive for a couple
- [Contact Info](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/05/05/contact-info/) - There are two new ways to get in touch with Barren to Beautiful! Email: barrentobeautifulblog@gmail.com Facebook: www.facebook.com/barrentobeautiful Due to some of the sensitive subject matter on this site, I realize some readers may prefer to comment or ask questions more privately via email. So, if this is you, I would love to hear your questions,
- [When the Barren Sing](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/05/01/when-the-barren-sing/) - I was looking for a parking space in a very crowded lot, when suddenly, near the front, a car pulled out in front of me. I quickly turned on my turn signal, eager to pull in, and whispered a prayer of thanks. But as I began to pull in, I read the sign nailed in
- [When God Feels Far](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/04/23/when-god-feels-far/) - Sometimes I need to come to Him, not like the Pharisee that's trying to have it all together, but the woman who just collapses at His feet and cries, and wets His feet with her tears and dries them with her hair. And can't stop kissing them. How much better to have this kind of tender affection toward Jesus and be falling apart, than to have it all together outwardly, but a heart like a stone?
- [Mom, Interrupted](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/11/18/mom-interrupted/) - Sometimes I try to find some privacy in the bathroom. But then the door bursts open like a saloon and my daughter stands there like the Texas Outlaw about to put the rectal thermometer in her mouth. "Noooooo!!!" I leap off the commode. I get interrupted. A lot. It's the reason my hair is never
- [Singing In The Dark: Worship When It Hurts](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/07/16/singing-in-the-dark-worship-when-it-hurts/) - I left work early that day, my world was spinning. My heart was in anguish, feeling as if it would burst at any moment. And once I arrived home, I was completely undone. Weeping. It seemed like suddenly all the light had gone out of the world. Out of my world. Sin and death. Like
- [A Prayer for the Longing Heart](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/04/01/a-prayer-for-the-longing-heart/) - Show me your Glory. I want to long for you like a young lover. I want to chase you and find you. I want to hunger and thirst. To long. I want to climb, and hide away. I want you to show me the heights of the land. And the depths of the sea. Oh
- [When Your "Easter Best" Looks Pretty Bad](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/04/05/when-your-easter-best-looks-pretty-bad/) - I didn't give my daughter an Easter basket this year. Instead, I gave her a waste-basket. Why? Because late last night, she woke up puking. Our night was filled with trips to the bathroom, loads of laundry and cleaning up puke. Not the Easter I had imagined this year. Her pretty turquoise dress hung on
- [When Waiting Weakens You](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/03/21/when-waiting-weakens-you/) - Have you ever thought you were finally almost out of a difficult season in your life only to find--it's not over yet? Or, it ended briefly, only to return with more full vengence? Have you ever thought things were finally changing, or finally "good," and then find they are even worse than before?I was looking
- [St. Patrick's Day is for Sinners](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/03/17/st-patricks-day-is-for-sinners/) - Last Sunday, we drove through a downtown city that was literally swarming with green. Though it was still several days before St. Patrick's Day, crowds of people were decked out in bright green wigs, boas, leggings (yes, they come in green), and even tutus (also bright green.) It looked like Party City exploded, as many
- [Infertility: Where Is God When You Can't Get Pregnant?](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/03/12/infertility-where-is-god-when-you-cant-get-pregnant/) - We all know that labor hurts. But what most people don't know is: infertility hurts too. It’s not the loud, screaming kind of pain. It’s long, and slow, and quiet. It’s a different kind of labor altogether. A labor of the soul. It happens when you toss another negative pregnancy test in the trash can
- [This Ugly House](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/03/05/this-ugly-house/) - My house has problems. Does yours? First of all, I have the ugliest linoleum kitchen floor. Ever. Sometimes I feel the need to apologize to guests when they walk in. It's yellow and brown, and looks a lot like the geometric pattern of throw up. Maybe it was all the rage in the 60's, but
- [Redeeming Valentine's Day: There's Only One Shade of White](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/02/12/redeeming-valentines-day-theres-only-one-shade-of-white/) - Thousands will flock to theaters this weekend to watch the pornographic book-turned-movie Fifty Shades of Grey. And while news-feeds of both Christians and atheists light up with blog posts and articles written by lovers and haters of this movie and book series, it's begging one big question: What is this all about? Well, I'm not
- [The First Time You Paint Her Toenails](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/01/30/the-first-time-you-paint-her-toenails/) - It happened last week. We sat on the bathroom floor together. She squirmed in my lap, and pulled off her socks one by one. And I picked out the only color I had...for a brand-new two-year-old: light pink. The novelty of nail-polish, Mom's nail-polish, kept her little feet squirming. I tried to steady them in
- [In Response to "Does Missions Separate Families?"](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/01/22/in-response-to-does-missions-separate-families/) - I never expected that my recent post "Does Missions Separate Families?" would be so widely-read. But in the past week or so, I have had the privilege of a whole audience I never imagined: missionaries. From all over the world. And I just wanted to say to these missionaries and your families: thank you. As
- [How To Stay Alive In the Dead of Winter](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/01/17/how-to-stay-alive-in-the-dead-of-winter/) - Queen Elsa may be able to wear a dress and prance around in the snow--but I for one, cannot. In fact, I actually hate the winter. Where I live, it snows for days on end. And bitter temperatures actually make your face hurt. (If you're not a cartoon.) In the last few weeks, I've started
- [I Actually Really Love This](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2015/01/01/i-actually-really-love-this/) - I know it's good to get away now and then, and I do. I slip out to Starbucks and write, or just stare out the window. But sometimes when we have a baby-sitter and we are at an adult-only party, I'm laughing along at some joke, and somewhere during that laughter, my mind drifts away
- [My 7 Most Influential Reads of 2014](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/12/29/my-7-most-influential-reads-of-2014/) - What we read or meditate on deeply affects how we think and ultimately, who we become. As the year ends, I've been thinking about what reads have most shaped me over the last year. The following is a list and brief explanation of some of the most perspective-changing books or blog posts I have read
- [She's Longing For A Child This Christmas](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/12/18/shes-longing-for-a-child-this-christmas/) - "I see her as she smiles lovingly on my own child, helping him pick up his cheerios just spilled across the floor. I see her as she acknowledges my shy little girl, telling her just how beautiful she looks this morning. What an incredible mommy she will be. I feel such joy for the soul who will be so blessed as to call her such."
- [Christmas is for Desperate People](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/12/12/christmas-is-for-desperate-people/) - To My Daughter on Christmas, I realize Christmas may seem a little confusing right now: This week you saw a glowing tree magically appear in our living room. (Then you were yelled at for touching it.) We went to the mall story-time and you got paper antlers and jingle bells to wear. Christmas music blared
- [About My Barrenness](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/03/18/about-my-barrenness/) - Discovering Barrenness “At least 2 years!” Is what I begged of my husband. At least two years where we could have sanity. Build our relationship. Discover who we were as a couple. Then the little munchkins could come. When I was ready. So…we did the infamous Pill. No dreaded “honeymoon baby” for us. That’s what
- [How to Love Your Friends](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/11/12/how-to-love-your-friends/) - Selah loves her friends. (Both living and non.) And anytime my husband or I try to pray before a meal, she interjects with a long list of her every friend, cousin, neighbor, uncle, and inanimate object within eyeshot. It's cute at first, and then we kind of look at each other and try to get her to a good stopping
- [Is There Ebola On My Shopping Cart?](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/11/06/is-there-ebola-on-my-shopping-cart/) - Whose sweaty hands might have pushed this shopping cart before me? Someone with Ebola? This was me: the face of normal suburban woman. With the mind of a panic-stricken psycho. That's why I passed up the shopping carts that day, with my child on my hip, determined to carry all my groceries in my arms.
- [5 Permissions (and Commissions) for the New Mom](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/10/22/5-permissions-for-the-new-mom/) - New Mom's or Mom's-to-be: Here is a bit of "sisterly" advice I gave to my own sister at her baby shower a few weeks ago. I gave her five "permissions" and five "commissions" as she embarks on the journey of motherhood. Enjoy! 5 Permissions for the New Mom 1. Permission to wear sweatpants. Every day. I
- [The Man Who Sleeps Beside Me](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/10/15/the-man-who-sleeps-beside-me/) - It's early morning, when I wake and feel him next to me. I lie as still as possible, careful not to wake him. I look over through the pale blue morning light, the quiet prelude before dawn. The beeping will sound soon, and he will wake and rush with the rest of the world. But
- [Don't Waste Your Barrenness: 10 Things to Do While You Wait](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/10/08/dont-waste-your-barrenness-10-things-to-do-while-you-wait/) - It can feel isolating. It can feel like everyone notices that your belly is flat. It can feel like everyone reads "Not Pregant" like a tattoo across your forehead. At the baby shower, questions start to surface: Why her, and not me? Is there something wrong with me? Has God forgotten me? The answer is:
- [Missing Rock Concerts](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/09/28/missing-rock-concerts/) - Right now, Kari Jobe is less than a mile away from my house. (I could literally put on my running shoes, and be at her hotel. Not that I've thought about it or anything.) But she might as well be across the country. Tonight thousands will flock to our city's arena and hear her sing
- ["Do You Eat Girls?"](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/09/19/how-to-quench-thirst/) - "Are you not thirsty?" said the lion. "I'm dying of thirst," said Jill. "Then drink," said the lion. "May I -- could I -- would you mind going away while I do?" said Jill. The Lion answered this only by a look and a very low growl. And as Jill gazed at its motionless bulk,
- [Braver Than Me](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/09/16/braver-than-me/) - She charges into the roaring surf at the ocean. And wants to be pushed higher, and higher on the swings. She pets barking dogs. And scales the walls of her crib. She stands on the very edge of the kitchen chairs, like she's ready to spring off a diving board. And during her bath, she dumps bucket
- [To My Friends Who Lost Desire](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/09/14/to-my-friends-who-lost-desire/) - As I was driving in the car yesterday morning, I was halted by this single reality: God is the most important thing. All the questions, desires and requests I had been asking Him that morning suddenly just---stopped. And this question came instead: Do you want God, for God? Or for what He can give you?
- [6 Things You Can Do for Persecuted Christians in Iraq](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/08/31/help-persecuted-christians-in-iraq/) - This morning, across the ocean, a woman has just watched her little toddler be beheaded, and her husband hanged with rope, and tonight waits to be stripped naked by two filthy, bloodstained hands of an ISIS militant, who will molest, rape, and kill her. It's true. "They are systematically beheading Christian children, raping, and killing the wives, and hanging
- [Frozen Pizza and the Crisis in Iraq](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/08/11/frozen-pizza-and-the-crisis-in-iraq/) - "What's for dinner?" my husband asked. "Just pizza," I replied, pointing to the box of frozen pizza on the counter. "Just pizza?" he said with a curious smile, implying my obvious ingratitude. "Okay," I rolled my eyes, "We get to have pizza tonight!" I exclaimed in my most enthusiastic voice. (But not very convincingly.) As I threw
- [When Writing is Seeing](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/08/05/when-writing-is-seeing/) - "You can talk to God this way," she said, then handed me a black composition journal and a new pen as we sat in Sunday School class. I did not know the power then, of what she had given me, of what was in my hands. Of words. That words have life-giving power. Since I was twelve,
- [What Turbo Kick Taught Me About Being A New Mom](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/07/18/what-turbo-kick-taught-me-about-being-a-new-mom/) - I am not sure what gave me the boost of confidence before entering the YMCA that day. But it was dangerous. As I walked in with an extra skip in my step, I looked at the schedule hanging on the door of Studio 1 and noticed a class called "Turbo Kick" started in 10 minutes.
- [I Set The Thermostat: How A Woman's Attitude Affects the Whole House](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/07/03/i-set-the-thermostat-how-a-womans-attitude-affects-the-whole-house/) - “You have like this bad…aura.” Those were my husband’s actual words. Of course that annoyed me even more. He came home around 10 A.M. and by that time it was too late. It was too hot in the house. My toddler was already too crazy. Evidence of breakfast was all over the counter (…and the
- [How Beach Trips Have Changed](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/06/25/how-beach-trips-have-changed/) - This season’s swimwear is skimpier than ever. I know because I searched rack after rack, and tried on enough swimsuits to dislocate my shoulder. I was just looking for some coverage and support—because, this year, I would be running on the beach. Chasing my toddler. Juking out of people’s ways. And doing sprints to grab
- ["Because You're Mine"](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/06/05/because-youre-mine/) - I have experienced love-at-first-sight my life only one time: the night my daughter was born. I remember them placing her slippery little body into my frail, shaky arms. And the moment I saw her, touched her; all at once, I loved her. All of me, loved all of her. This avalanche happened in my heart
- [Motherhood: The Moments No One Sees](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/05/16/motherhood-the-moments-no-one-sees/) - Today's mothers hold a special power that no other generation of mothers quite held: the Smart Phone. And with this power (sometimes) comes the pressure to capture every moment of your darling child's life. (Especially if you have family out of town, who eat it up!) The least you can do is snap a picture,
- [Can Fear Cause Barrenness?](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/05/06/can-fear-cause-barrenness/) - Fear has been like a constant shadow in my life. It seems to disappear at times, and reappear in a new guise--kind of like Alfred Hitchcock. Viewers used to make a sport of "catching" him in cameo roles in nearly all his movies. "There he is boarding a bus!" (Or walking a dog, or sitting at a table in a
- [Stop Waiting To Be Happy](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/04/22/stop-waiting-to-be-happy/) - When I was barren, I was constantly waiting to be pregnant. But I was also waiting to be happy. I thought that if God would give me what I desired (a baby!), I would be "complete." And I would be the happiest girl in the world! I remember the day I found out I was pregnant, and I was
- [Barren to Beautiful](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/03/25/tozer-poster-jpg/) - Barrenness can be a time of deep testing. But also of deep growing.
- [5 Important Questions The Barren Woman Should Ask](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/04/01/5-important-questions-the-barren-woman-should-ask/) - Questions to Ask Yourself Before Using Conception "Helping" Methods: 1. Could this hurt my body? This may seem obvious, but when you are desperate to "have a baby" you often forget to consider harm to your own body. Be sure to do your research and look into any not-so-nice side effects. "Do you not know that
- [Why Barrenness Is So..(Lonely!)](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/04/10/why-barrenness-is-so-lonely/) - Unless you are okay with your all your relatives picturing you naked, and in the bedroom, you are probably not going to "announce" to the gang at Thanksgiving dinner, "We're trying to get pregnant!" Therefore, aside from your husband and OBGYN...there's a good chance your circle of trust is pretty small. Let's face it, the
- [Knowing How Far Is Too Far When Trying To Conceive](https://barrentobeautiful.com/2014/03/25/knowing-how-far-is-too-far-when-trying-to-conceive/) - What do you DO when "it doesn't happen" right away? (Yeah, pregnancy..) Pick a door! Any door! Door #1: You jump on Google searching frantically for fertility advice/treatment. Checking out books at the library (if you're brave. And don't live in a small town.) Or secretly order books from Amazon (if you're like me.) Door

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