What if infertility affects more than your body?
What if it also affects your…soul?
While I was trying to conceive (TTC) I had more than a barren womb, I had a barren soul. Deep inside of me, there was an unfilled longing and ache. At the time, I didn’t have a language for what was going on inside of me.
I knew I desperately wanted a baby. And I was trying my best to surrender that desire to God. I was reading my Bible, but sometimes, I didn’t know where to turn next. And there was no one I talked to about it–besides my husband and doctor. (That’s a pretty small circle of friends!)
I was in a dry place.
I was in that place between faith, and surrender, and longing. In that place of the great unknown.
I felt lost inside.
Like I was roaming through a wilderness. My soul felt like a dry, cracked barren wasteland. There was a constant, nagging thirst within me, reminding me of my empty womb. Reminding me I didn’t have a baby, and maybe never would.
I was trying to just “be okay with that,” but my soul was in a numb place.
I was in the “wilderness,” the “desert.”
But thankfully, Jesus isn’t afraid to enter deserts, especially deserts of the soul. And He entered mine.
He met me there. Right in the midst of my wilderness.
And He came just as He promised He would. He came as the Living Water.
He poured out His Spirit on me. While I was in that dry, desert place.
I wasn’t at a conference. I wasn’t at a worship concert.
I was just in my living room.
But He met me there.
And He will meet you, too.
Right where you are right now.
How You Can Be “Watered in the Wilderness”
During my infertility, He showed me that though my womb was barren–my soul didn’t have to be. By His Spirit, He would make my life full and beautiful–with, or without a baby. His Holy Spirit was alive in me, and He made me alive. So very, alive.
If you’re trying to conceive (TTC), or just in any dry season of the soul, you may be experiencing a wilderness season.
But here is God’s promise to those in the wilderness. He says,
“Behold, I am doing a new thing;
now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?
I will make a way in the wilderness
and rivers in the desert.” Isaiah 43:19
He will make a way in the wilderness, He will make rivers in the desert.
I don’t know if He will give you a baby–but I know this: He will give you Himself.
He will pour out His Spirit upon you.
And you will not walk away tired, or thirsty, or empty.
That’s why I made this 5-Day Infertility Devotional: “Watered in the Wasteland.” It’s a downloadable PDF and each day includes:
- a scripture
- a short devotional
- “Think About It” questions (for your journal)
- a little prayer
- a few, practical “action steps” to take
That’s it! You can work through it one day at a time, or, spread out each of the five parts, so that you complete just one part each day (ie. Monday=scripture, Tuesday=devotional, Wednesday=Think About It questions…etc.) Whether you move through it fast, or slow, my prayer is that you take the time to pause and let the Lord minister to your soul.
There’s a lot more I wanted to add to this little guide. But sometimes you just need a place to start.
A little stream to quench your thirst in the great wilderness of infertility.
Get your FREE Infertility Devotional HERE
Just enter your name and email address in the form below and I will email you the infertility devotional!–>
If you’d like the accountability and motivation of a group to do this with you–head over and join our Barren to Beautiful Community Group on Facebook and we will go through this together in the month of February 2020!
Here’s what you need to do:
- Sign up in the form above (or below) with your name and email address–your devotional PDF will be emailed to you within 15 minutes.
- Check your SPAM folder! Sometimes it accidently ends up there. And you can add me (Rebekah Fox) to your contacts as “barrentobeauti[email protected]”.
- Next, SAVE your devotional! I recommend saving it to your homescreen, or your iBooks (for Apple users.) This will only work if you can EASILY ACCESS it–am I right?;) You don’t want to have to dig up the email each day!
- How do you SAVE IT?
- iPhone users you can open the PDF and save it to your iBook app by exporting it there–for easy-to-flip pages (or, save it wherever you like to save your e-books, or PDFs, like Kindle, etc.).
- Android users you can save the PDF to your homescreen by downloading it and saving it as a file shortcut, (or, save it wherever you like to save your e-books, or PDFs)..
I created this so you can easily view it from your phone, however, you can of course read it from your computer, and/or print it out. However, it is rather color saturated, and may take a lot of ink! But if you have a sweet printer, go for it! I recommend clicking “Fit to Page,” and this is an “A4 Document” size, if you should need to know that.
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Although I wrote this devotional for women who are TTC, this devotional can still be used by women (and men) who are not in that season. This little guide is full of biblical encouragement for all dry, thirsty souls–
because He is the Living Water for all of us.
So if you are tired, come.
If you are thirsty, come…and be watered by Him.
Not because I invite you, but because He does.
Much love my beautiful friend,
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