In the few days between learning that Noah had died and giving birth to his lifeless body, I awakened throughout the night, unable to sleep, knowing that my child had passed away in my womb. During those nights, God filled my mind with Scriptures and songs. And I kept hearing that phrase, “Do not be offended by me.”
In this episode, we talk openly about the unexpected struggle of infertility. The despair, lonliness, and confusion–but also how the Lord met me in an unexpected and powerful way. I share how the Lord pursued me, spoke to me, and showed me more of who He was, so that my eyes could be opened to His beauty. (I also share ways you can support and honor a friend walking through infertility.) So, please tune into our conversation, I believe it will encourage your heart, no matter what season you are in.
That’s why I’ve created this FREE Gratitude Journal for you to download and start today! It’s called, “Blooms in the Desert: A gratitude journal to help you find the beauty of God right where you are.” It’s a simple way to begin the practice of thanking God for the little things in your life–especially if you are in a difficult season, and aren’t sure how to start.
Because no matter what else happens this crazy year–Jesus already knows about it. And whether the sky comes crashing down in giant flaming pieces, or the mountains burst apart and fall into the heart of the sea, or world war breaks out to the ends of the earth, or (I could list A LOT of my worst case scenarios here…but I will spare you the details of my own crazy mind.) The point is, no matter what happens, Jesus promises this:
“I give them eternal life, and they will never perish, and no one will snatch them out of my hand.” John 10:28
No one will snatch them out of my hand.
Are you thirsty?
Are you restless?
Especially in the season of infertility. I was trying my HARDEST to read scripture, and to hope in the Lord…
but my soul was all over the place. And pretty soon, I found myself in a dry, barren season of the soul.
And no one could save me from it.
You see, something about Jesus, is that He is not afraid to enter wildernesses. He is not afraid of the dry, barren places within us. He’s not afraid of our hard questions, or tears.