I need to weep, and I need to pray.
And I need to feel. And I need to cry.
And I know that seems so “unproductive.”
Like a waste.
I’ve felt guilty about it. Like I should be “doing” more.
But what if feeling, and grieving, and praying…actually is “productive.”
What if it’s a part of the process?
Dear Christians,
You were born for such a time as this.
Yes. For this pandemic. This COVID-19.
And you have been training your whole life for this. Your whole life.
This time, when the world pauses together, and weeps together.
And no one knows what’s going to happen next, or how bad it’s going to get.
This grief. This fear.
This standing still.
The gasping, the panting, the reaching out…
of a dying world.
Perhaps no one in our country is dying of thirst for lack of water, but many are dying of another kind of thirst.
Soul thirst.
Soul thirst is the thirst you feel deep within you because you need to come into the presence of God and hear Him speak to you through His Word, the Bible.
When you are trying to conceive (TTC) and unable to get pregnant, it can make you weary. Trying to conceive, month after month, is exhausting, physically, emotionally, and spiritually.
When we were trying to conceive, my emotions were all over the place. Sometimes, I was full of faith and hope. And sometimes, I felt bitter and numb inside, forcing my feelings down and not daring to hope–because it was too painful to hope.
But Christ met me in that wilderness place.
What if infertility affects more than your body? What if it also affects your…soul? While I was trying to conceive (TTC) I had more than a barren womb, I had a barren soul. Deep inside of me, there was an unfilled longing and ache. At the time, I didn’t have a language for what was going on inside of me….
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